Tiberiuuuum

[ithika]

Okay so I was supposed to sleep, or whatever. But I tried - honest! - and I have too many thoughts buzzing around my head.

Firstly, this thought has been confusing me for some time.

Homophobia. The phobia of homosexual people.
Shouldn't there be another word for people who hate (and other bad stuff) homosexual people? As in, the people who discriminate against and are in other ways retarded towards them? Because isn't hate different from fear?

I realise that hate or anger is a pretty common by-product of fear, but still. I don't know. Forgive me if this is inappropriate. I was just thinking about it - isn't it possible to fear something without hating it?
I had a hard time considering this because the only thing that I can truly say I have a phobia towards is seaweed (yes, it's true. Not afraid of spiders, snakes, fire, heights, disembowel- wait, ok. mildly disconcerted by the idea of disembowelment - etc, but afraid of seaweed. petrified of it), and while I could say that I fear it and I guess I hate it, seaweed is hardly representative of this train of thought, it's not a very complex fear.
So I think the fact that I both fear and hate seaweed may be irrelevant? Or maybe it isn't? Maybe fear always results in hate?

I can't really imagine having an intense, phobic fear of a certain group of people, though. I guess it's because I don't?
I have a moderate fear of too many people all at once, but that's not saying "I fear people who have brown hair" or whatever. It just seems silly. But I suppose the whole thing is.

And then, if that's the case and people who hate homosexual people shouldn't be called homophobes but something else, does that mean that homophobia becomes a benign thing? Could it be? I mean I would still definitely think of both as being stupid and misguided, but then most phobias are. For example there's not likely any reason that I should fear a plant that floats in the ocean. But as much as I can say that now, it doesn't stop me from being afraid of it.  Hm, no, I think it definately wouldn't be benign. Because it's still going to cause people to discriminate against another group of people. Theoretically. Because I suppose you are mistrustful of the things you fear, and therefore your fear would always govern how you react to the object of your unease. So therefore a person who didn't hate gay people, but was afraid of them for some reason, would still treat them differently and therefore be discriminating against them, if unconsciously or passively.

So I suppose in the end of all that I have come to the conclusion that I guess homophobia is appropriate to mean both hating and fearing homosexual people.

Hurrah! A pointless wall of text.

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In other news:


I finished my fish vector




Um.
I am randomly really happy and then really angry lately. Somewhat concerned about these moodswings, because they are reasonably uncharacteristic. Or at least they have been for a while.
I am pretty sure I know what's causing them, however:
1. I am unhappy about the fact that I'm always broke. (Lol can't fix it)
2. I am unhappy with my level of fitness (though I'm working on improving that)
3. I am unhappy living at home (Lol can't fix it)

So yeah. Knowing what the problem is doesn't really help when you can't change it, though. It more highlights my feeling of frustrated helplessness.

At least my studio teacher really likes my work. He said it was "inspired." This makes me feel pretty good. But still, with the mood swings.

Comments

[patternsofchaos.livejournal.com]

I probably won't be able to come again tomorrow (mostly because while I think my knee will be ok, I don't want to do any exercise without my strap thingy, which I conveniently left at Jason's.)

Should be good to go on Thursday though!

[flye.livejournal.com]

Fear leads to hate.. Hate leads to the Dark Side.

[caketime.livejournal.com]

Nice pic!!!!

[theducks.livejournal.com]

Re problem 1.. you can't fix it because you don't have the time to work, or you can't fix it because you don't have a job? If it's the latter, and you have a passable knowledge about compotars, let me know and I can be on the lookout for something.

[penchaft.livejournal.com]

NICE picture. Is pretties!

[queenofsog.livejournal.com]

NICE VECTORRRRR! Did you use a tablet? I am trying to decide if buying a tablet will lead to my ultimate happiness or not. I am also fascinated with the process people use to get to a finished product, especially one that is so awesome.

Homophobia. Hmm. I think it's the misunderstanding that leads to fear. People who don't understand it, and people who would be classified as homophobic have a strong aversion to homosexuals. I think it is a fear, but it's not a fear like 'omg this plane might crash!', it's a fear from misunderstanding. It's not as if being around homosexuals is going to lead to any direct negative impact on the phobic person, there's no danger element, it's just beyond their comprehension.

I have been feeling a little manic lately too. One minute I'm all 'I'm going to do all these things of awesomeness!' and the next minute I'm like 'this is the worst day ever and I hate everything'. It sucks when you really can't fix things though. Have you ever thought about doing freelance work? I do bits and pieces of graphic design and such, and it's good money. People get paid way too much for that stuff. My riding coach was quoted 50,000 to get a website up, so me charging them 3,000 seems like a bargain but I could live off that money for ages!

So, um, yes. There are ways to build your folio and experience and earn a little cash on the side :)

[infamyanonymous.livejournal.com]

One thing I do know is that altering language does nothing to alter the concepts those words represent. It doesn't seem logical to me that there is a group of people who are afraid of homosexuals in the way other people are afraid of spiders. Therein, lies the diversity of 'phobia'.

Essentially, there's two meanings, which have been socially defined. The suffix [-phobic] means 1) An intense irrational fear of X, or 2) A strong dislike boardering on irrational fear of Y.
In the same way [-aholic] has become a suffix meaning 'addicted to'. It doesn't have any greek base, it's just been taken off the end of alcoholic, and used to denote the addiction that word implies, even though it has no real base, it just sounds right. ('Sounds right', btw, is a perfectly acceptable reason.)

It's like xenophobia, or the newly termed Islamophobia. Most people with xenophobia aren't (necessarily) scared, per se, just a general discomfort with the idea of foreigners.

So, basically, yes. Your conclusion was correct. I just had these 2 cents sitting around in my pocket.

(Also, that drawing is fantastic. Really, really awesome.)

FISH + CHIPS = YUM

[arinellen.livejournal.com]

Wonderful picture. I liked the colours last night but now I don't like them as much. It's too... wrong for me. Not that I don't love the drawing! You should teach me to draw so well. It may just be the Yoshi beneath my monitor at the moment that is making the colours funny? Or the LCDness?

Umm, I have lots of mood swings. I am getting better at controlling them.

[dailfire.livejournal.com]

Ooo i was just talking about this !!This may start a anger swing!! :P
http://youtube.com/watch?v=T0xoKiH8JJM&feature
do you think that is fear or hate?
His explanation for how he doest "hate" still makes no sense for me?
Personally i think/hope hes a joytastic satirist.