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ithikaOkay so I was supposed to sleep, or whatever. But I tried - honest! - and I have too many thoughts buzzing around my head.
Firstly, this thought has been confusing me for some time.
Homophobia. The phobia of homosexual people.
Shouldn't there be another word for people who hate (and other bad stuff) homosexual people? As in, the people who discriminate against and are in other ways retarded towards them? Because isn't hate different from fear?
I realise that hate or anger is a pretty common by-product of fear, but still. I don't know. Forgive me if this is inappropriate. I was just thinking about it - isn't it possible to fear something without hating it?
I had a hard time considering this because the only thing that I can truly say I have a phobia towards is seaweed (yes, it's true. Not afraid of spiders, snakes, fire, heights, disembowel- wait, ok. mildly disconcerted by the idea of disembowelment - etc, but afraid of seaweed. petrified of it), and while I could say that I fear it and I guess I hate it, seaweed is hardly representative of this train of thought, it's not a very complex fear.
So I think the fact that I both fear and hate seaweed may be irrelevant? Or maybe it isn't? Maybe fear always results in hate?
I can't really imagine having an intense, phobic fear of a certain group of people, though. I guess it's because I don't?
I have a moderate fear of too many people all at once, but that's not saying "I fear people who have brown hair" or whatever. It just seems silly. But I suppose the whole thing is.
And then, if that's the case and people who hate homosexual people shouldn't be called homophobes but something else, does that mean that homophobia becomes a benign thing? Could it be? I mean I would still definitely think of both as being stupid and misguided, but then most phobias are. For example there's not likely any reason that I should fear a plant that floats in the ocean. But as much as I can say that now, it doesn't stop me from being afraid of it. Hm, no, I think it definately wouldn't be benign. Because it's still going to cause people to discriminate against another group of people. Theoretically. Because I suppose you are mistrustful of the things you fear, and therefore your fear would always govern how you react to the object of your unease. So therefore a person who didn't hate gay people, but was afraid of them for some reason, would still treat them differently and therefore be discriminating against them, if unconsciously or passively.
So I suppose in the end of all that I have come to the conclusion that I guess homophobia is appropriate to mean both hating and fearing homosexual people.
Hurrah! A pointless wall of text.
In other news:
I finished my fish vector
Um.
I am randomly really happy and then really angry lately. Somewhat concerned about these moodswings, because they are reasonably uncharacteristic. Or at least they have been for a while.
I am pretty sure I know what's causing them, however:
1. I am unhappy about the fact that I'm always broke. (Lol can't fix it)
2. I am unhappy with my level of fitness (though I'm working on improving that)
3. I am unhappy living at home (Lol can't fix it)
So yeah. Knowing what the problem is doesn't really help when you can't change it, though. It more highlights my feeling of frustrated helplessness.
At least my studio teacher really likes my work. He said it was "inspired." This makes me feel pretty good. But still, with the mood swings.
Firstly, this thought has been confusing me for some time.
Homophobia. The phobia of homosexual people.
Shouldn't there be another word for people who hate (and other bad stuff) homosexual people? As in, the people who discriminate against and are in other ways retarded towards them? Because isn't hate different from fear?
I realise that hate or anger is a pretty common by-product of fear, but still. I don't know. Forgive me if this is inappropriate. I was just thinking about it - isn't it possible to fear something without hating it?
I had a hard time considering this because the only thing that I can truly say I have a phobia towards is seaweed (yes, it's true. Not afraid of spiders, snakes, fire, heights, disembowel- wait, ok. mildly disconcerted by the idea of disembowelment - etc, but afraid of seaweed. petrified of it), and while I could say that I fear it and I guess I hate it, seaweed is hardly representative of this train of thought, it's not a very complex fear.
So I think the fact that I both fear and hate seaweed may be irrelevant? Or maybe it isn't? Maybe fear always results in hate?
I can't really imagine having an intense, phobic fear of a certain group of people, though. I guess it's because I don't?
I have a moderate fear of too many people all at once, but that's not saying "I fear people who have brown hair" or whatever. It just seems silly. But I suppose the whole thing is.
And then, if that's the case and people who hate homosexual people shouldn't be called homophobes but something else, does that mean that homophobia becomes a benign thing? Could it be? I mean I would still definitely think of both as being stupid and misguided, but then most phobias are. For example there's not likely any reason that I should fear a plant that floats in the ocean. But as much as I can say that now, it doesn't stop me from being afraid of it. Hm, no, I think it definately wouldn't be benign. Because it's still going to cause people to discriminate against another group of people. Theoretically. Because I suppose you are mistrustful of the things you fear, and therefore your fear would always govern how you react to the object of your unease. So therefore a person who didn't hate gay people, but was afraid of them for some reason, would still treat them differently and therefore be discriminating against them, if unconsciously or passively.
So I suppose in the end of all that I have come to the conclusion that I guess homophobia is appropriate to mean both hating and fearing homosexual people.
Hurrah! A pointless wall of text.
In other news:
I finished my fish vector
Um.
I am randomly really happy and then really angry lately. Somewhat concerned about these moodswings, because they are reasonably uncharacteristic. Or at least they have been for a while.
I am pretty sure I know what's causing them, however:
1. I am unhappy about the fact that I'm always broke. (Lol can't fix it)
2. I am unhappy with my level of fitness (though I'm working on improving that)
3. I am unhappy living at home (Lol can't fix it)
So yeah. Knowing what the problem is doesn't really help when you can't change it, though. It more highlights my feeling of frustrated helplessness.
At least my studio teacher really likes my work. He said it was "inspired." This makes me feel pretty good. But still, with the mood swings.
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Date: 2008-04-09 02:52 am (UTC)Life is so much easier with a tablet. I've made vectors with a mouse before, and tablet vectors turn out so much better in so much less time, it's amazing. And fun!
Ahh okay, that's a good idea. Hmm, well I have always wanted my own slice of interweb. Damn that money thing though. That's awesome! Now just to extract the dollars from them... Yeah. People who aren't quite organised?
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Date: 2008-04-09 03:02 am (UTC)Wait, tell me one more thing. Did it take you a while to master using a tablet? Some sites I've read say it's hard. Also, some places have said it's not good for left handed people. I am a left handed people.
Intraweb is affordable, really, depending on how flat broke you are. I set up my riding school with a .com and a .com.au and a hosting package for about 200 bucks for 12 months for the .com.au and the space, and two years for the .com. I used Domain Hosting Shop. I also had a site hosted with them for about 3 years and had no problems (that I didn't cause myself, like deleting frontpage extensions whoopsies).
If I owned an SLR camera, I'd totally be charging them to do new photography. I have to do photomedia next semester at uni so I might use the uni gear to take horsey promo shots. The riding school people had awesome photography done like four years ago, but never brought any of the shots, and now the photographer's drive is corrupt and she said if they want them she's going to charge for data retrieval which may not work. And these are simple country type people, so they are all 'why can't you just get them for us wtffff' and that's the last I heard about the whole thing... that was 3 months ago now.
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Date: 2008-04-09 09:54 am (UTC)Nope! I was able to use it with the greatest of ease once I updated the drivers. Make sure you get the right proportions for the monitor you're using though. (like if you use a widescreen monitor, make sure your tablet is widescreen format.) I'm left handed too!! WE MUST BE TWINS
:S Unfortunately I'm kind of flat-ish broke. I just need to find a way to squeeze more time out of days. I'll find a way. That is a pretty reasonable price though! (Oooh. That is a whoopsie!)
Ugh. SLR cameras. My friend has an SLR, and it makes everything look pro and classy. I mean I love my camera and all but it just doesn't compare. (She may be somewhat more skilled at photos than me too... :'()
:( Poor country peoples. That seems sad for them. :( If only SLRs weren't hideously expensive! Then you could make them a website AND sell them photos!! :D it would be great.
:( Three months! Aww.