People make me feel uncomfortable.

AHahahahahah
Did anyone get any really good April Fools today?

I didn't like having to be friendly to most people I served at work today. Which was a bit unusual for me. [Normally I don't mind] But today I was feeling a bit irritable for no real reason.
I do know that I don't like it when I can't figure out what people mean by what they say/do. I don't like it at all. And I don't like people that make me feel uncomfortable. For no reason. They just have icky-feelings radiating from them. There was this one guy today... I think he may have been attempting to convey his manly-man-ness to me. Which somehow was very depressing. I'm not sure why. I think it was because I felt bad for the poor creature. Or bad because I suspected that and therefore felt vain. Or something. But if that is the case, he wasn't/isn't very good.
Gah.
But enough of that
Away from these depressing foundations
anyone who doesn't immediately recognise that quote has had no childhood at all

Went shopping again today. Got some pinstriped trousers... oooh. And some new PJs. Whee. Stripey. Yes. e y.

Oh! Have made a breakthrough in deciding what I'm doing for my Creative Writing assignment. I am, after all, going to do The Watcher. I'm aware that it will need almost infinite editing... but it's still easier than thinking of a new story which I'll then have to break down into a plan... The good thing about The Watcher is that I already know heaps about almost everything that's going to be in the story.
I've changed a few things though, and I think I'll be renaming most of the characters save The Watcher, I think. Since The Watcher doesn't really have a name...
I thought up a new character today.. his name is Stag. More on him later though... [He will be my own take on the kind of characters that always end up being my favourites, for some reason]

Oh my god, I hate MSN so very very much. That's why I'm not online tonight, by the way, because MSN is a whiney bitch.
*fumes*
And Web Messenger is a pain in the arse. I pity those poor wretches amongst you who must use it day to day... I really do. Deepest Sympathies to you my friends.

I might go now...

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I push my fingers into my eyes, it's the only thing that slowly stops the ache, but it's made of all the things I have to take, Jesus it never ends, it works it's way inside, if the pain goes on...I have screamed until my veins collapsed I've waited as my time's elapsed Now, All I do is live with so much fate I've wished for this, I've bitched at that I've left behind this little fact:
You cannot kill what you did not create I've gotta say what I've gotta say And then I swear I'll go away But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise I guess I'll save the best for last My future seems like one big past You're left with me 'cause you left me no choice I push my fingers into my eyes It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache If the pain goes on, I'm not gonna make it Put me back together Or separate the skin from bone Leave me all the Pieces, then you can leave me alone Tell me the reality is better than the dream But I found out the hard way, Nothing is what it seems

Slipknot, "Duality"

Remember :It's quite possible that I'm just as surprised as you are that this song is the way that it is, being by who it is by, and how I love it so.
( more lyrics, for no reason. There is really no reason to read this unless you're some kind of freaky-mind-reading-through-lyric-liking-ness... in which case you scare me. terribly. )