Vodka now, or, Communism, and Vodka, more Vodka, later

Yeah. History is insanely cool.
And, as it happens, I also haven't updated in a while, and, and I'm experiencing something like livejournal withdrawal. Bwahahah. Erm, not sure if it's funny, but mehh.
Oh. ( You don't really want to read this - my RE assignment so far, because god knows [hah, pun], I'm not finishing it in class )

Guh. Social justice, phooie.
I have this urge to write something.. but I don't know what. Perhaps, shockhorror, something set, well, now. Which is interesting. You see, I never ever write 'now' setting stuff. Well, I don't, generally. If I do, it tends to be generic, any-time, any-place nature stuff, but yeah.
Something... thing. I'm not sure, and I honestly have no idea what I would write, or what I want to write. I just have a feeling, but not something that I can put into words. I could probably... do something... with colour, but, that's not what I want to do. So, so, mehh.
I'll do it later, when I have more ideas.. .or an idea, for that matter.
...yeees.

There's a fine line between 'hobby' and 'mental illness'

I think that sums up a great deal of my life, really.
( cut due to gushyness )

*looks around self-conciously*
Yeah, yeah. I know. But it's ok. Really, it is.

...
I spent a long time doing homework today. Maybe it's a good sign, maybe I'm finally doing what I'm supposed to do. my god, I wish I could just give up on maths here and now...
And today was a good day. As it happens, stereo microscopes rock. However, I want an electron microscope, and I want one now.
Also, I'm starting to think that maybe I'm not a very good arts leader. Well, leader in general. Not to say that I'm a 'follower', but I don't think it's a very good idea to let me lead. I'm lazy, irresponsible, and enjoy chaos far too much. I also, if leading were literal, would find it vastly amusing to lead people/things into, or off of, rather, cliffs. [Hey, if they're that guilable...]
that and I'm forgetful. Oh yeah. And it's making me more paranoid than I normally am. Although, this isn't a good paranoid - I'm being paranoid about myself messing up, which I'm not normally.

...Egads! It's Johnny Depp with almost no hair!! [sorry. but this is a big thing for me... well, *pause* *shrugs*]

But anyway, I'm thinking that maybe this year is going to be tough, not so easy-sailing as I had planned. *sighs* that's a very depressing thought, you know.
And I really need to do something creative and do it soon, or my head will implode, I kid you not. I haven't done anything interesting or fulfilling in a long while and it's begining to have adverse effects on my personality. I may have been the only one to notice it, but seeing as this is me, and my mind, just me noticing is enough. It's not that I'm unhappy, it's just that I'm restless. Skitterish. On edge. And I don't know whether I like it. But it worries me, none the less.